Change..

From my own perspective Ishmael Beah has changed drastically since the beginning of the story. Now he is physically stronger, he is emotionally ice cold due to being a soldier and his over all mentally is centered around his own survival. In the beginning of the story he is amazed by rapping and wants to be a rap performer as the story goes on the more he progresses away from the old life style the more stern and determined Ishmeal becomes.
In Chapter 20 Ishmeal is a guest at the UN Economic and Social Council chamber where kids from all over the place had a chance to speak on the volience and the experience for many as a child soldier. Ismeal explains the repeated pattern of being a soldier and how it would never absoulutely stop. "I've come to learn that if I am going to take revenge, in that process I will kill another person whose family will want to revenge, then revenge and revenge and revenge will never come to an end.."(pg 199) He acknowledge's the problem many children face in the country some by choice and some without any choice and he decides it would be worth the risk to hopefully change someone's mind on the conflict, or move and organization to participate in some way, to save some child's life and to note his words in history. " I was sad to leave, but I was also pleased to have met people outside of Sierra Leone. Because if I was to get killed upon my return , I knew that a memory of my existence was alive somewhere in the world."(pg200)